Once I was blind, but now I see.
“When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves”. Viktor Frankel
Isn’t that the truth!?
I have been trying to fix, manage and control nearly every facet of my life for so many years that I really had myself believing that I had this power. The thought of that makes me laugh out loud today.
I had to really disconnect from that way of thinking because it truly was not serving me well. And QUICK STICKS too! And I had no idea. At all. Not until I was in my Life Coaching education and it was posed to us that having to know all of the answers and to be “prepared” for every thing that can possibly be thrown at you in life comes from the Ego.
What? What does that mean? I am an ego driven person because I want to know what I need to do to be prepared?
Yes, apparently so.
I have prided myself on being selfless and helping others before helping myself and meanwhile in my own head I was working like a machine taking in every single image and putting them into compartments for later use so that I could always be prepared for whatever could possibly be coming my way. It was exhausting!!! I was always tired because I could never let go.
I can sit here today and tell you that although I am not perfect, I have come a lonnnnng way, baby! In only 8 months I feel like I am a different person! To be able to see (and to be OPEN for) so many fantastic possibilities that can happen at any moment, I witness more magic happening in and around my life than ever before.
Why? Because I am not trying to force them to happen any more. I just let it go and said “God, you are in control of this and I am here to learn. I am here to learn from all of my teachers and guides that you put before me and I want to be better and do better and I need help.”
Wow! What freeing words for me to say. To ask for help! That was the best thing I ever could have done for myself. To admit that I had no idea what I was doing and to ACCEPT that I didn’t HAVE to know everything.
This “Perfectionist in Recovery” has come out of her cocoon and has started to fly. I was bound to the earth before because of fear, which is really what control is all about. Fear of the unknown. Fear of looking stupid. Fear of trying something new because I don’t know what the results would be.
What kind of a life was that? A boring one with a lot of “no’s.”
Now I say to myself, why not? Look at today, Åsa, this is all I have. This moment. Don’t worry about tomorrow or the next day because there are so many more beautiful things that can be presented in that amount of time and I am open for them. I want to learn more and just be my authentic self.
In my authentic self, I can give more to YOU.
So much pressure has been removed from my heart and soul. I feel lighter. I am lighter and I shining my true light, like I have never done before.
If you feel heavy in your heart or heavy in whom you have become and you want to change or tweak a few things, reach out to me! I would love to hear from you and listen to what you have going on and to hear what you want to accomplish.
In me sharing my story with you, I hope that if you have any similar things happening in your life that you would like to change that you see that there is a possibility! There is always a possibility for change IF YOU CHOOSE to do something different.
It starts with you.
I am here when you need me. It would be my honour to help you.